Social anxiety, journey to healing.

For years I have struggled with anxiety. This day and age everyone has anxiety, so maybe this isn't some great discovery. However for me, it is. My journey with mental illness is long and sad, so we won't go into much detail. I was always a very shy child who didn't make friends easily and struggled to fit in. I have always known I was anxious but it never crossed my mind that I was socially anxious. In college I felt alive and free. Now at 22, I feel like a zombie. I feel like life goes on around me and it's all bullshit. Life is bullshit. I'm on autopilot. Go to work, come home, eat, sleep, pay bills and repeat. I feel like no one around me is paying attention. Like I'm stuck in a virtual reality where I am no longer playing but everyone else is having a great time. Sometimes I don't know if this is a dream or reality. Why is no one paying attention?